Friends ? Boyfriends ?

My heart keeps pondering about few things that remain unexplained. Just want to make clear regarding some things. Unfortunately , I am not the type of person that gets angry easily. When , I am angry I can't show it off. That's my problem. Even though I am very angry at the moment I have no confidence to show it off , because I think about the other person more. My mind voice will be like - ''I am giving you all the respect or behaving good to you but why don't you do the same to me ?''

Sometimes , it's good to accept the truth. The truth that everyone are selfish. es, at this point I am being clear that.. everyone including me. I admit that at times I am selfish. Okay , making it clear to the point .... I wonder is it true that after being in a relationship people tend to change to become more selfish or in other words to say neglecting the person around you ? Being in a relationship myself I really don't know the answer. As far as I know , I don't do that and I respect everyone as equally as how I wanted to be treated. Come on , it's give and take policy. But , I am unsure about few people around me.

For instance, let me explain to you few situation that I experienced.

1) When you and your friends being very happy and planned a trip to go out , suddenly because of this one person among them the whole plan cancelled.

2) The next day , you plan again and because of that same person you lose the fun in the group , because of their urge to do what they want. 

3) All of you in a big group , sharing & discussing an important thing that all of you went through. One of the person doesn't seem to involve in the conversation and so busy with their work.

I know that it's all small things... but for me small things do matters. I gone through so many things in my first year of university life. It's not even a month yet , and still I'm watching many endless dramas around me everyday. Yaaaa , I get angry sometimes but I feel so sorry for myself that I couldn't show it off because scared that will effect my relation with that party as we are always together in a small group.

Just a friendly reminder , don't ever ignore your friends for your boyfriend. I f it's a trustworthy and good relationship I won't bother , but when your boyfriend can dump you for his friends , no point you being so good. Another important thing is , please never spoil the fun that your friends hanging because of your own lovey dovey live. If you don't like /  don't want to be involved , then don't join and spoil the happy moments your friends having. Last but not least , having a boyfriend doesn't portray your maturity. Thus, be humble and happy going :) 

It's just my thoughts and feelings that I want to say , no hard feelings anyone. Just feeling so not good mood here. But , I feel better after blogging. Having a new module to begin tomorrow. Will be busy , but I had an awesome weekend.This week gonna be a tough one to struggle with. With a pat on my heart , I say to myself  "ALL IS WELL''

Smilee and be happy