A fresh start for my journey as a medical student . Feeling light and happy despite of all the worries and struggles that I am facing. Feeling lonely deeply inside but things will be better :)

Friends ? Boyfriends ?

My heart keeps pondering about few things that remain unexplained. Just want to make clear regarding some things. Unfortunately , I am not the type of person that gets angry easily. When , I am angry I can't show it off. That's my problem. Even though I am very angry at the moment I have no confidence to show it off , because I think about the other person more. My mind voice will be like - ''I am giving you all the respect or behaving good to you but why don't you do the same to me ?''

Sometimes , it's good to accept the truth. The truth that everyone are selfish. es, at this point I am being clear that.. everyone including me. I admit that at times I am selfish. Okay , making it clear to the point .... I wonder is it true that after being in a relationship people tend to change to become more selfish or in other words to say neglecting the person around you ? Being in a relationship myself I really don't know the answer. As far as I know , I don't do that and I respect everyone as equally as how I wanted to be treated. Come on , it's give and take policy. But , I am unsure about few people around me.

For instance, let me explain to you few situation that I experienced.

1) When you and your friends being very happy and planned a trip to go out , suddenly because of this one person among them the whole plan cancelled.

2) The next day , you plan again and because of that same person you lose the fun in the group , because of their urge to do what they want. 

3) All of you in a big group , sharing & discussing an important thing that all of you went through. One of the person doesn't seem to involve in the conversation and so busy with their work.

I know that it's all small things... but for me small things do matters. I gone through so many things in my first year of university life. It's not even a month yet , and still I'm watching many endless dramas around me everyday. Yaaaa , I get angry sometimes but I feel so sorry for myself that I couldn't show it off because scared that will effect my relation with that party as we are always together in a small group.

Just a friendly reminder , don't ever ignore your friends for your boyfriend. I f it's a trustworthy and good relationship I won't bother , but when your boyfriend can dump you for his friends , no point you being so good. Another important thing is , please never spoil the fun that your friends hanging because of your own lovey dovey live. If you don't like /  don't want to be involved , then don't join and spoil the happy moments your friends having. Last but not least , having a boyfriend doesn't portray your maturity. Thus, be humble and happy going :) 

It's just my thoughts and feelings that I want to say , no hard feelings anyone. Just feeling so not good mood here. But , I feel better after blogging. Having a new module to begin tomorrow. Will be busy , but I had an awesome weekend.This week gonna be a tough one to struggle with. With a pat on my heart , I say to myself  "ALL IS WELL''

Smilee and be happy

Weekends !

It's a super-awesome-relaxing weekends time! Yayy! You know the feelings after exams ? And you don't have to open your book and can do whatever u want ! Yup , that's what I am undergoing right now. Love it to the max !

Feeling super-duper enjoyed with all those moments I have for myself. I'm in good mood , haha.. Had a good longggggg sleep , done with my laundries, watched 4 movies in a row .. Wow wow wow! 

My new module is going to begin this coming Monday. Going to be a tough one , I know it. I'm also pretty sure that , I won't be this free during that module. New things to learn. Excited and determined to do well.

But, the thing is .... everytime I promise myself that I wouldn't do last minute study & be hardworking + responsible student , it fails! Will try my level best to do it this time.  

Tomorrow , we planned an outing with juniors . Time to stuff in some good , delicious food. Planned to play bowling too. Hoping for a great Sunday ahead. I miss him again , looking at all those lovely couples around me. Oppsss... okay , no space for anything to spoil my mood and made me down.. Wohoooo here I am , feeling great over the weekends. Loving the time I'm  having for myself.

Good night people ! :D

EXAMMMMMSSS

This time , hoping for a change.. Want to be back as how I am used to be! Having module test tomorrow  my friends ! Hoping for the best. Wish there are some three-leaved clovers hidden in my room ! Haha , sometimes luck do play a role. Anyway , my dear blog , got to go now , will update u soon :) More things to come. Prefer blogging it this way :D

I wish....

I WISH I COULD BE ONE OF THOSE PEOPLE THAT DON'T CARE WHAT PEOPLE THINK ABOUT THEM ! :'(

Feeling meh

Things never goes the same as we wanted. Same goes for me! It's not like this I was expecting. Yes ,, we do have to fall down at times to remind us where we stand and have the kind of drive in us , which will push us to stand up again and continue with our journey. I don't know , being a medical student , surrounded by people of all type , and the pressure to be the best .. EVERYTHING ,, gives me an unexplained feelings. Slowly , I am getting over it!

Learned important things that will stain my brain forever ..
1) Never underestimate anyone!
2) Don't think that you can go through anything without hardwork!
3) Never involve in other person's life , even it's helping them because somehow it will be turned back to you
4) Sometimes it is better to be selfish.
5)If you don't want , just say don't want . Thinking too much about what others think about you & forcing yourself their way KILLS! Believe me it really kills! In the end nothing benefits you , leaving you far far behind..

I'm in need of good motivation & some time for myself. Time for me to be myself again . Feeling fresh after writing it out in my blog , and here I am gonna pull my blanket , and have a good nap - relaxxxxxx! Will get back to work , getting it started fresh :)

Smiles & be happy everyone!

Time for myself

New semester , new start as 2nd year medical student. After back from really tiring health promotion , did all the shifting to my new room. The first look at my own room , wasn't that satisfying, but i hope that i will really get used to it as time passes by. Meanwhile apart from that, I can feel the negative aura among my certain so-called friends. Yes, we didn't fight, we didn't have any misunderstandings but..... there is something. But I know what.. whatever it is I'm gonna face it at my own pace. I have my own room , i can do my own works and revision. Headphones in ,Volumes high..  I got my own time for myself. Yayyyyy ! There is no need to bother about anything! :D